LOST AND FOUND

In this world of change,

nothing which comes stays,

and nothing which goes is lost.

       Annie Sophie Swetchine

My greatest joy these days is to express myself. Express what I've held deep inside. I am learning the value of being present. When I am present my expression is free and child-like. I feel no restrictions, constrictions and cannot hear myself editing or judging myself as I express freely and openly.

For many years, actually for most of my life, I have attempted to express by first thinking, what does this person want me to say. It's an approval technique that I learned as a child. My new and more authentic expression comes bubbling up from my deep well of  the hard earned wisdom of living and enduring life.

It is because of my new openness that my paintings have taken on a freshness, a vitality and a strength that says here I am and what are you going to do about it? I feel the alignment of being able to ask for what I want even though I don't always get what I want, I am still able to express myself. My former tendency of witholding how I feel, stuffing hurt feelings, made the many challenges of life, even more painful. Expression has revealed my integrity, the stuff that I am made of  such as caring, compassion, sharing , touching and kindness. This is the real part of me and the pretending that I am okay by presenting a facade to the world is the illusion of my false self.

My goal today is to have a KIND-MIND!

Faern